Whitney and her story about ibogaine and PTSD

Hi David.

I hope you’re well. I know I messed up when I got back, but my clean date is May 31, and its staying that way. The ibogaine is still helping me to realize more and more everyday. If you were able to treat everyone this world would be a much better place. This time it confirmed I was molested when I was 5. I’ve been talking to Kai, I’m going to get counseling, but I’m going to get through this. And I know the number one thing I cannot do is use, as long as I do that I’ll be OK. I should have stayed longer, I know I messed up. But I am truly done with this.

I’ve got to get myself right for my son and mostly for myself.  I hope you aren’t angry with me. I’m going to text you a picture of me in a couple months and show you how much better I look and how much more weight I’ve put on. You helped to save me. Even though I messed up I’m right now and it’s because of you.  I’ve talked to people who’ve been through this. I know I have a long road ahead but I’m so ready. And once I’m better I’m gonna help others because that’s what I was meant to do. Just as you are. You are amazing, please keep doing what you do. It is truly Gods medicine. I don’t know if yall treat a lot of people on methadone but it is so so much worse and takes so much longer to feel better. But I’m getting there and I know I’ll be right again soon. As long as I don’t use.

My parents were in denial all my life about my depression and I never got help for it. I was depressed and suffering from PTSD. And I know I still am but the ibogaine has gotten me leveling off to where I can deal with it for now. I’ve started on an anti depressant to help me eat and sleep. I’m gonna live like a normal person, just learning how to is the hardest part and I know I can do it. The whole anger thing that you pointed out to me really made an impact on me because it made me realize where the anger came from, and it all began with a small molestation that I can barely remember but I know happened.  It was a neighbor down the street. I just wanna let you know that I’m doing good now and I know what I have to do. Thank you so much again David. God bless you, I will be talking to you soon. And you’ll see the new healthy me.  And if you happen to talk to Peter let him know he really did help me with a lot of the things he talked to me about. I appreciate that and I appreciate everyone there more than you’ll ever know.